Sarah Ferguson has spoken up about her past struggles. Photo: Chris Jackson/Getty Images
Sarah Ferguson has spoken up about her past struggles. Photo: Chris Jackson/Getty Images

Fergie’s darkest days: ‘I destroyed myself’

Sarah Ferguson admitted that divorcing Prince Andrew in 1996 was brutal, but that it ultimately led each of them to their best lives today.

"It was rock bottom," Ferguson, 59, told Modern Hero in her first US interview in seven years. "I had completely and utterly destroyed myself. I murdered myself. I must have brought that on for myself, mustn't I? That's how I felt about myself, self-hatred at its height … I think that I lived in my ego for a very long time. So sad."

 

Prince Andrew, Sarah Ferguson, and their daughter Princess Beatrice at Princess Eugenie’s wedding in October. Photo: Danny Lawson — WPA Pool/Getty Images
Prince Andrew, Sarah Ferguson, and their daughter Princess Beatrice at Princess Eugenie’s wedding in October. Photo: Danny Lawson — WPA Pool/Getty Images

She doesn't regret the marriage, which gave her daughters Princess Beatrice and Princess Eugenie, despite its failing.

"He was a total gentleman. He's one of the kindest people ever," Ferguson said of the prince. "Certainly, the best thing I've ever done was marry him in 1986. My love for Andrew conquered everything."

 

The couple at their wedding in July 1986. Photo: John Shelley Collection/Avalon/Getty Images
The couple at their wedding in July 1986. Photo: John Shelley Collection/Avalon/Getty Images

The Duchess of York explained that Prince Andrew's Navy schedule ultimately led to their split: He was almost always away, and she suffered from abandonment issues from her mother leaving her family when Ferguson was just 12 years old.

"It was seven years, 40 days a year, I saw him," she said. "It was really, really difficult. I think it played into my abandonment. We both agreed we didn't fight hard enough to keep it together."

Now, 20 years after divorcing, Ferguson and Prince Andrew still live together in their own version of happily ever after.

"Now our life together is the greatest ever," she said. "It's so hard to comprehend because we're not normal. This is our fairy tale, and we're telling it our way."

 

This story originally appeared in Fox News and is republished here with permission


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